Once again I am in AWE, a humble awe at my God. For years I have been struggling and downright disobeying Him. To put my heart into words (on this subject) is not something I have ever wanted to do. It is so gutturally painful. To help others through our grief has not been at the top of my “To Do” list. I was more than willing to help as long as I did not have to relive the past.
Well of course that doesn’t get me very far down the road toward obedience does it?
I have known for most of my life that I have an unquenchable desire to write, but never knowing the storyline. When God placed that storyline in my lap over 10 years ago I promptly put the pencil down and did not return until recently. Even now I still drag my feet.
I feel completely ashamed of myself. All this time I have been resisting His loving nudges to write. I thought my writing would just be to help other people. Never once did it occur to my self- centered soul that He would use you to encourage and be the balm to my wounded heart. That He would use you to be the words of His heart speaking directly to me. Thank- you for your unhindered obedience to Him, for I have profited greatly from it! I will not look back with agony of time lost but ahead with eagerness to what He has in store.
Thank you
“Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.”- Proverbs 19:20-21
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
My Foolishness
Once again I am in AWE, a humble awe at my God. For years I have been struggling and downright disobeying Him. To put my heart into words (on this subject) is not something I have ever wanted to do. It is so gutturally painful. To help others through our grief has not been at the top of my “To Do” list. I was more than willing to help as long as I did not have to relive the past.
Well of course that doesn’t get me very far down the road toward obedience does it?
I have known for most of my life that I have an unquenchable desire to write, but never knowing the storyline. When God placed that storyline in my lap over 10 years ago I promptly put the pencil down and did not return until recently. Even now I still drag my feet.
I feel completely ashamed of myself. All this time I have been resisting His loving nudges to write. I thought my writing would just be to help other people. Never once did it occur to my self- centered soul that He would use you to encourage and be the balm to my wounded heart. That He would use you to be the words of His heart speaking directly to me. Thank- you for your unhindered obedience to Him, for I have profited greatly from it! I will not look back with agony of time lost but ahead with eagerness to what He has in store.
Thank you
“Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.”- Proverbs 19:20-21
Well of course that doesn’t get me very far down the road toward obedience does it?
I have known for most of my life that I have an unquenchable desire to write, but never knowing the storyline. When God placed that storyline in my lap over 10 years ago I promptly put the pencil down and did not return until recently. Even now I still drag my feet.
I feel completely ashamed of myself. All this time I have been resisting His loving nudges to write. I thought my writing would just be to help other people. Never once did it occur to my self- centered soul that He would use you to encourage and be the balm to my wounded heart. That He would use you to be the words of His heart speaking directly to me. Thank- you for your unhindered obedience to Him, for I have profited greatly from it! I will not look back with agony of time lost but ahead with eagerness to what He has in store.
Thank you
“Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.”- Proverbs 19:20-21
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Sande said...
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All this time I have been resisting "His loving nudges to write. I thought my writing would just be to help other people. Never once did it occur to my self- centered soul that He would use you to encourage and be the balm to my wounded heart. That He would use you to be the words of His heart speaking directly to me. Thank- you for your unhindered obedience to Him, for I have profited greatly from it."
You can turn what you wrote here around to you and have it work exactly the same.
Your transparency, humility, courage and desire to surrender make me WANT to do the same.
THAT is inspirational. -
October 12, 2009 at 5:01 AM
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Christy said...
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So what are you saying? Are you going to write a book or are you just saying you are going to blog more? I vote for a book. :)
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October 13, 2009 at 7:21 PM
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Holland said...
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hmmm so true Sande! so true
Christy! ;) -
October 14, 2009 at 3:54 PM
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All this time I have been resisting "His loving nudges to write. I thought my writing would just be to help other people. Never once did it occur to my self- centered soul that He would use you to encourage and be the balm to my wounded heart. That He would use you to be the words of His heart speaking directly to me. Thank- you for your unhindered obedience to Him, for I have profited greatly from it."
You can turn what you wrote here around to you and have it work exactly the same.
Your transparency, humility, courage and desire to surrender make me WANT to do the same.
THAT is inspirational.
So what are you saying? Are you going to write a book or are you just saying you are going to blog more? I vote for a book. :)
hmmm so true Sande! so true
Christy! ;)
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